- I don't want to journal
- My handwriting SUCKS
- I don't think it does me any good
- I hate my words so much
- Why do I even do this?
- I could do so many other things
- Writing is stupid
- Oh god, it is so stupid to write! Why did I never realize that?
Do these snippets of inner dialogue sound familiar? I really detest it when this kind of jabbering happens to me.
In this example, I talk about journaling, but it is universal for me. When I sit down to write a blog post, it happens. When I write a blog post, it happens. When I edit a story or a novel, it happens.
It is self-sabotage, pure and simple. It's your whiny mind getting in the way of your words. Sometimes, like in this instant, letting the mind whine is a good thing. Why?
Because you see how stupid it is. After writing these words down I write to myself: I AM A WRITER DARNIT, NOT WRITING IS LIKE NOT BREATHING!
And I sat down to write this post.
I once wrote, "The more want, the more whine."
The other way around is also true. The more my mind whines, the more I want to write things.
In that regard, I am doing well these days :)