Why I play

When I woke up this morning, I had a lot of fearful thoughts. I thought I was doing wrong with my website, I thought my message sucked and I thought there was nothing I could do to make it better. I should sit down in bed and wait for the day to pass me by.

In the past, these fears would have choked me up, and I wouldn’t have sat here writing this article.

But I’ve discovered play.

How it started

I started to play when I had a writer’s block. I visited Lynn Viehl’s blog and saw she invited other writers to give a workshop. I signed up without thinking, and the next morning I woke up with the idea that you could play through fear. I began to play with that idea and wrote three blog posts that changed my life.

Ever since that moment I am play, and play is me. I knew the changes in my attitude when a facebook friend commented that she wished she could be as joyful as I seemed to be all the time. I wrote in response that nothing had changed for me, I still had the same problems I always had, but that being joyful and playful is a choice.

The effect of play

Back to this morning and my article writing conundrum. What was the tipping point between me sitting here fretting about my path and about the article and me writing this?

I played. I played Wordfeud against my brother, I goofed off on Facebook, I played with photographs. I had fun, and during that I ignored my fear and what triggered it completely. Then I sat down and started to write completely nonsensical starts for this article. When I was done giggling I erased the nonsense and wrote for real.

I played my way through my fear and my “down time” and got to work.

Changing your thoughts

To be able to do this too you have to change the way you think. In stead of seeing your fears and thoughts as real, see them as a movie that plays on the TV. You can sit and watch it intently, or you can let it run on the background while you do the things you want to do.

Start daydreaming. Rest your head on your hands and stare outside. Right now the clouds here are so pretty, they are like brush strokes on canvas. Imagine you are adding to those strokes. What do you create today? Do you paint something, or do you write some words, or do you get out paper and scissors and make a pretty collage?

Wonder where you want to create. Do you want to sit in the living room with the sunlight streaming in so that you have to squint while you create? Do you want to sit outside?

Then just wave goodbye to your fear and just do what you want to do.

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